My Alleged Husband

Chapter 1990 - 1784: Hysteria

I never thought I could lose you so easily; I laugh at myself for being so foolish again and again.

Xia Jing never expected that her husband would so readily choose to let her go and leave home this time. He knew that each of her requests was like an insurmountable challenge for him, yet he claimed he’d never want to have any dealings with this man again. However, she secretly hoped that one day, she might reunite with the man she once loved. She could never forget him, despite his claims of having long forgotten her. Deep down, she just didn’t want to confront her own heartache, because how could anyone carelessly sprinkle salt onto those wounds?

Zhang Zhentian forced a smile onto his face as he faced his wife, knowing that this might be the last time he would ever see her. Yet, he felt no regret, believing instead that this was a good outcome. Everything in the past had become like this due to his own reasons, and now, this situation would also end because of him.

Xia Jing saw the forced smile her husband struggled to put on. Her heart ached, regardless of everything, for he was once the man she loved the most. Yet today, things had turned out this way, and there was no way her heart wouldn’t ache. Although all of this had little to do with her, she still felt some responsibility.

"You don’t have to keep wasting time on me. You can find a woman who truly deserves you, someone better than me. Unlike me, where every one of my actions only brings you sorrow. After making your heart ache for so long, you deserve a life of your own happiness. Don’t waste your time on me; I’m not worth it."

"Deep down, you still care, don’t you? You just don’t know how to talk to me or live with me. You feel we are unsuitable together because I hurt you in the past. But I want to ask, do you still have a place in your heart for me? I only need one heartfelt word; please, don’t make it hard for me anymore, I beg you!"

"Indeed, my true feelings still include you. How could I forget so easily? After living together for so many years, my love for you often makes me realize that actions are like spilled water—irretrievable. Everyone understands this. We have become like this, and neither of us should make it difficult for the other. You should have your own happiness, and I should embark on an independent journey to chase my dreams. Though it may be difficult and painful, I still want to challenge myself. I don’t want to waste my entire life standing still here."

No matter what you’ve done or said, I’ve long since forgiven and pardoned you. I just didn’t know how to express it to you. I felt that if I told you these things early, I’d lose my dignity. I have always been such a prideful woman, willing to hurt even the ones I love most for the sake of my dignity. You’ve never left my heart’s deepest corner, and I don’t know how to face you anymore."

"Hearing your sincere words, my heart is truly moved. Thank you for sharing them with me. When you’re alone out there, please be careful and don’t easily trust strangers. You always believe what others say, and you’re easily deceived. Be wary of everyone except me; I’m afraid you’ll be tricked and become hurt and sorrowful, while I won’t be there alongside you immediately."

Ultimately, it’s because of me that things turned out this way. Therefore, I must bear all responsibility in any case. I’m letting you go not because I’ve stopped loving you; quite the opposite, my love has not diminished, but deepened because you gave me such a perfect life. Though you will no longer be by my side, I will forever be grateful for the happiness you’ve brought me over these years.

The same holds true: if you’re tired from your travels, remember that my home is your home wherever it is. I will peacefully wait for you to return to me. I’ll no longer force you or make things difficult for you. I will silently support your decisions from behind, watching you strive to achieve what you desire. When you accomplish all your goals, I will quietly be proud of you, because you are my wife, my lifelong partner—a fact no one can change. Perhaps at times, I seem stubborn, but please believe that my love for you is genuine..."

Xia Jing knew how difficult it was for Zhang Zhentian to say these words, and today he willingly expressed them, proving that he truly understands and wants to give her a chance for her own path. Should she feel happy about this? Why does she feel a hint of sadness instead? Is it because she still cannot forget him?

"Since you’ve said this, I won’t argue further. I only hope you can enjoy the happy life you want during this time, and remember to live well. It’s uncertain when or if I might tire of wandering and wish to return to you, but I hope by then you won’t resent me..."

The two people who once loved each other deeply have finally taken this path; no one could have anticipated this outcome. Despite their deep love, a lack of trust led to the eventual destruction of their marriage. If they had been more affectionate back then, would things be less challenging now? Clearly, they could have kept their promise to stay together for life, but ultimately, they chose to separate. Xia Jing gains her own life without Zhentian’s presence.

Elder Zhang, overhearing their conversation, finally felt relieved. This outcome is neither good nor bad, yet hopefully serves to build trust between them. Ultimately, it might be a good result, and he can finally set his mind at ease.

Perhaps I will wait for you at the next crossroads, hoping you’ll return to my side!